Hey You... Wait
Im not waiting for you (from what I know). I am waiting though, for the same thing everyone is waiting for, something good, something different, something better. Better than what we have now. There is just this giant rut that everyone is in- that I have fallen into and just cant escape, no matter how high I jump or how much I claw at the edges. Everyday we wait, we hope for something, anything to come and just take us away, to change our lives, to simply wake us up. We will always wait because of this dam feeling that burns at the chest, a feeling that come from our very core, that sends shivers down the spine and makes our body, from our toes to our fingers, frail and limp- leaving this unbelievable, unreasonable breathlessness. Sometimes I cant breathe, sometimes I cant think. We wait and wait and wait. Though at the depths of our own conscience, we know we are waiting for nothing. What we want will never come. We know this ,so why do we do it? Why do we wait? Honestly...I think its the only thing thats keeping us alive, keeping me alive. Waiting gives hope. I dont want to accept that this is it, that this is our lives. Its sad that I reject the present, but its how I cope. Maybe one day (hopefully soon), I will stop waiting and be happy. The day I can say "this is it, this is my life" with a smile, is when the waiting will end. (As of today, I know my problem. I know why I will never get what I want- because I want too much) But this is what I wait for, something better. I am not waiting for you. I held on to you because you were something good, so obviously good. I saw you as a way out of this hole, a rope that swung heroically down from the endless sky above. That rope is gone now... and I dont think I am going to spend my days looking to the stars for its return. I am waiting for life...
Shit Happens
This is my second all time favorite saying/quote/life lesson. Its soo simple and easy to understand. Shit happens! Bad, unfortunate things are a part of life. It is naive to believe that life is full of roses, butterflies, and fucking rainbows. People are bound to run into trouble every once in awhile (some more than others). Its not about luck or karma or especially you. Never blame yourself for something that cant be avoided. Shit happens! You get into a car accident. Shit Happens! Girlfriend leaves you. Shit Happens! Family problems. Shit happens! Love one passes away. Shit Happens... Its unfair, but thats life. Shit is going to happen. All you can do is wait for it to end, clean that shit up, flush it away, and carry on with your life.
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